Quite recently my life has changed for the good. I purchased one Nate's albums aptly: "Therapy Session". Truthfully I can say, jip, music has pretty much shaped me into what I am today.
I have listened to most Christian bands and artists from the age of 14, currently sitting at age 38. Call me crazy for all that it is worth, but I discovered myself in the lines and words of Nate. I know some would get a hissy fit when listening to the sound of his music, good. It is not in any notion or gesture to appease everyone.
I never really gave much attention to RAP music. It is more than just a good sound, the Words of Nate's life-story that he penned and mapped out in his records, I actually got so hooked on his sound that man, I am rapping in my prayers, when I talk to people I can't help but speak in Rap mode. Ok, cool, you think Rap is aggressive, that might be true, but what are you actually afraid of?
It has helped me to deal with my mess. Look, I don't expect you to like his way, method or sound, you just do ya self the favor and listen to his beat. This guy is for real. I have changed my whole perspective on life...
Give me real people with real issues and stories. I am by long yard far from perfect, ain't me. Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to score points or pull rank for his work. It is in no notion my intent to credit my work for his life.
It talks to me, Speaking of talking, I have a wrap with my shrink today, it was motivated by the medical staff where I reside to have another acute 21-day admission. Been through plenty of those, I hate pills, have to swallow them each day, ain't fun or funny the kind of life I have and had to live the past 17 years. It has been hell. And please don't pretend you know what I am talking about.
You go through 58 plus weeks in rehabs, 21 ECT's for those that don't know what it stands for, pretty much "Brain shock treatments". I wish at times, they would have given me at the least a 4-week break, before putting me on hectic medicine, with hectic side effects.
Put me in a cage, lockup ward. Want to talk about life and pain. Well, maybe you should read into the verses of Nate's songs, if it does not meet ya where ya at, then you have no cooking clue of real life, life is not always pretty, I personally have seen and experienced the ugly side of life, something most people know nothing.
The page you should take note of is Nate's page. This guy has been from the guttermost to the uttermost. Had nothing, has everything, yet remains real.
I have discovered common ground. In a sense and I think I can say there has been much pain, as such is most of our colorful faded dark world around us...
You need to snap out of it, get real, or get out, simple as that. I know I don't write popular articles but I take note that the ones speaking to ya pain, is the ones really getting the most hits.
We sit with a world in pain, hey! Yes, the world is in diastrates man, you wanna go to church, put on your pretty face, get your act together, get in with it, or just please get out!
I too must confess in this article, hey! I have also pretended, those days are over for Jaco. It is a new season and through Nate's words, I have found the key to rid of a lot of stuff that was eating at me.
We are the outcast, for now, hate me, bury me in a "home" where I reside as a permanent resident, I love these people, they have a story to tell, and honestly, I would'nt rather be in any other place than here, working with these precious souls.
I choose to DJ each day for people from 8 AM till 12 PM. I tell you, these people, well most of them are seriously sick.
I medicate them on a daily basis with a Good sound, they cant express but praise God all the way, I can impress upon them, the true nature and the Love of God. Yes, many cant talk, walk or eat like you do, they eat and drink through straws. You wanna get a taste of what people in the real world have to face each day, well you just pop in one day and see for real man.
I work at their Soul, while some might think, who is this dude trying to make a difference? After all, he is just a Psycho. Yes, should you to know, I am sicker than most people in this joint. Give these beautiful people a bit of a beat with a dose of true love and they revel and dance inside that which seemingly appear to be an empty shell. There is someone behind that closed door.
It gives me quite a kick, sitting before 90 people and pour my life into them.